I know, I know, a post without a photo is so boring! Actually taking a photo and then plugging my camera into my computer would take much more commitment to a single task than I have in me right now. Know what I mean? I feel like I have complete ADD right now. (FYI--the HD so doesn't apply to me, especially this week. I sat on my couch for way too many hours today!) I can't focus on any activity for more than about 20 minutes. It's really frustrating. I want to get more completed, I just can't focus. Even now I'm thinking about what I want to do next (crochet some baby booties) and it's about all I can do to finish this post before I pick up my hook and begin.
I once heard that multitasking is what takes away our ability to live in the moment. I think that's what is going on with me. There are so many things I want to accomplish that I don't have the patience to sit down and finish anything. Another task is always waiting for me. I devote my full attention to nothing and nothing gets done. Consequently I fail to see what really matters. The people that matter the most to me are either ignored or yelled at for getting in my way (hanging my head in shame here!). This isn't who I want to be. It isn't how I want to live. I've found myself immersed in the "thick of thin things."
In December I was listening to Dr. Laura, as I do whenever I am in the car between the hours of 1:00 and 4:00, and I heard her give some advice to a woman that I have not forgotten and have thought about a lot over the last month. She told her caller to "Become the kind of woman you admire." I don't know why, it's so simple, but that advice hit me like a ton of bricks. I can't get it out of my head. I think about it all the time. It makes me think about all of the women that I know. What do I admire about them? It's hard because there is so much to admire in the women I am blessed to call my friends. Maybe I want to emulate too many of their attributes. I think in desiring that I am setting myself up for failure. I need to narrow it down, focus my efforts. This is a life long journey, something that needs to be decided upon, worked on, and reevaluated at regular intervals. Of all the things I want to do this coming week, I think that deciding who I want to be is going to be at the top of my list. I may not finish or come to any hard a fast conclusions, but I want to know my general direction. I will focus. Next week will be great!